About saying things

Strange. Recently I’ve been feeling more and more like I don’t have all that much to say to other people. I don’t write in my Estonian blog at all, anymore. I only use it to proclaim some of my more intense emotions or thoughts or finds, but I don’t really… talk about anything. For example, in my last post I just copied and pasted some lyrics from a song I like which was basically my idea of telling the world how much in love I am. The person the lyrics were meant to got the hint, but I doubt anyone else made too much out of it. All they saw were some lines that had rhyming words at the end.

Maybe it’s just a phase I’m going through in which I need to sort my thoughts out for myself before feeling able or simply confident enough to present them to the world. Maybe I just think better when I’m talking to other people. I already know I generate better ideas when I can bounce them off other people’s words or thoughts or whatever. My brain works best in a conversation. I guess I’m very much a woman that way – I work my own problems and ideas and concepts out while talking about them.

I’m only able to write about this in here, because I know I’m doing it for myself. I did not create this blog for other people’s entertainment or to show off my cool ideas and writing skills (which are pretty much nonexistent, when English is concerned – just look at my syntax and punctuation…). I made this blog for myself, so I would have a place to come to and just have fun or work out thoughts and problems that I might have, and to simply practice writing in English. I need it. I need a little corner of my very own, we all do.

Blah. I don’t feel like writing anymore.

P.S. Wow, my English really sucks in this one. Well, I could edit it, but I’m not feeling like it right now. It won’t stop the point from getting through anyway.