Randomness in Tartu

Hah. Here I am in Tartu, sitting in Goblin’s broken chair. writing. Because I am just that bored. Going home soon, by bus. I would hitchhike, but there is no one to do it with, and I am definitely not going to try and hitch a ride all by myself. As unattractive as I might think I am the prospect of meeting some perv on the road does not excite me.

I have no idea how the above sentence was supposed to make sense.

I feel a little sad, actually. The people I come to visit here in Tartu and who, on occasion, invade my huge house in the capital are my friends. I care about them. I’ve known most of them for years and they have played a major role in the development of my personality and my interests. Most of them will stay here in Estonia, in Tartu, after high school is over. I, on the other hand, am planning to run off to the big wide wideness of the world as soon as I’m freed from the bonds that chain me to this country and my school (yeah, I hate that place). I want to go and see something new. Something completely different. I want to go and prove myself I can manage on my own and other stuff like that. I’m too tired to go too deep into it right now (two people in a 0.75 person bed is not comfortable…).

So I’m most probably leaving everyone behind in about a year’s time. I might not get to see them for a very long time. Might even be years. Thinking about that makes me sad. Yeah.

It’s funny how desperately I try to sound intelligent, but never succeed.

We got our fence done this week, which means that we’re bringing my dog back from my grandma’s some time soon. That is SO COOL.

Oh, and my MacBook broke, which is just totally lame. It managed to pick the perfect time – I’d just reached halfway in my goal of writing 50,000 words of a novel. I had a good story. Darnit. I hope the maintenance people can get it fixed before August, with all my files and stuff. Funny how much I’ve become to depent on that little thing. And funny how much free time I have now that I don’t have a laptop anymore. I get so much more done – reading, cleaning, studying (yes, I study in the middle of my summer break), hanging out with people.

Computers are evil, man.